I’m back from vacation. The weather actually provided us with one extra day which was kind of nice, but I am glad to be home.
We had a really good time, but the dynamic with my mother was very weird for me. It seems that as she gets older, she is starting to realize the importance of family. While we were away she spent a lot of time telling me that she loves me, that she was thrilled that I came on the vacation.
This is completely different from the way she has acted pretty much my entire life until now.
Don’t get me wrong. It was nice to finally feel like I was appreciated and cared for. But I really don’t know how to deal with this massive shift in the family dynamic. It’s hard to accept that it’s real. 46 years of experience tells me that this is a trap. I’m afraid that I will start to let my guard down and get stomped again.
This is definitely going to be the topic of conversation at therapy today.
I’ve missed y0u all. I have a lot of reading to do and I will try to get around to everyone. There were so many times I wanted to post and see what was going on with all of you. No internet was weird but also very freeing.
Just Plain Ol' Vic said:
Welcome back. Hopefully your transition back to the “real world” isn’t too bad.
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dianetharp70 said:
I’m glad you had a good time! As for your mom’s new/changed behavior,,, Hmmm,,, you know her best but could it possibly be she realized/s her mortality? Regardless I hope the new warmth she shows you continues. Hugs
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Leslie said:
I think that’s a big part of it Diane.
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anthromichelle said:
I’m glad you had a lovely vacation. Time does funny stuff to people But it’s nice to have you back amongst the online community:)
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morgueticiaatoms said:
Welcome back.
And I get the maternal kindness thing. I get it from my dad these days…for about a month or two, then he goes right back to his critical jerk self. Not sure if he loves me or if I am a lazy leech on society cos he flip flops but I figure he’s senile.
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jennymarie4 said:
Welcome home! Glad you had a nice time 😊
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Problems With Infinity said:
Welcome back!! That’s great that you had a great time- and that you’re connecting with your mom in a better way now! I think my mom is a bit like that too- growing up we were very close, but then there was a period of time that we just weren’t connected, and more recently she’s been much kinder and trying to reconnect. I hope this shift in kindness lasts for your mom!
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Leslie said:
Me too! Thanks!
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Sandy Sue said:
I’ve been sort of waiting for your vacation report–and never in a million years could have expected THAT one. Yaay?
Caution is definitely called for. And isn’t it the shits that we don’t get to enjoy someone saying, “I love you”?
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Leslie said:
Yes, it sucks. I would love to revel in it, but I can’t. It’s just way too far outside the box right now. This was definitely the long shot bet.
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