So, it’s been a bit since I posted. I have a lot of different things I want to talk about, but I can’t seem to get anything organized in my head. I’m smack in the middle of a mixed episode right now and it’s really messing with my thoughts.
Last week, hubby had Thursday and Friday off from work. MIL had gone to her sister’s so we had four whole days together, just him and me. And it was great. It was so nice to just spend all that time together.
This week, hubby has had to switch shifts at work for a few days and the hours are messing with me something fierce. Up at 4:00am is just not something I can do easily anymore. I go back to bed after he leaves, but this morning even that sleep didn’t really help. I’m still exhausted.
Tonight I have plans to go to a “Wine and Paint” event at the American Legion. It’s my attempt to get out there and meet people. And I’ve been excited about it for awhile. Until today. Now I don’t want to go. I’m not artistic, I’m tired, and I know I’ll put pressure on myself. So, I’m going to probably spend the rest of the day talking myself into it. Hopefully, I can enjoy it.
I’ve got posts planned for other things, but I think I just had to get a little bit of writing out there to get going.
Thanks for bearing with me.
Hey Leslie!! Glad to know you’re OK. Sorry you’re so tired. Don’t push yourself today if you don’t want to do something. Do what makes you happy.
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Thanks Jess!
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I think the art and wine event will be great!! Beauty of it all is that if you aren’t comfortable, you can leave! Have fun. 😉
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Thanks Matt!
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You’re most welcome!!
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I know exactly how you feel, I talk myself out of things pretty much all time. But it is good sometimes to push yourself to do things that your mind is telling you not to, or just things that you don’t usually do. You should do whatever you feel comfortable with doing and most of all, enjoy it! 🙂
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I’m definitely going to go, I just hope I can do it with enthusiasm. thanks so much for commenting!
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You’re welcome, and I’m so glad!
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Hey leslie,
Wine and art sounds so much fun. 4 am is harsh. And going back to sleep probably only made it worse. We throw ourselves off our natural sleep rythems when we do it. But what is one to do when life just happens. You go to bed earlier. You drink water and lemon. You make a great breakfast energy shake. There are tremendous benefits to getting up early. U have time to spend with God and ur own thoughts. Enjoy a cup of tea while watching the sunset. Go for a walk, do some stretches…work on ur blog 😉 u can do this.
I have found it is such a blessing to our husbands to be awake and helpful. And as far as tonight goes. Do it!
You will regret it if u don’t go.
Art is not about be ingesting amazinglyrics talanted.
It’s about finding peace, allowing urself to be free. U hem wine will help this too.
Hope u go. And then share ur amazing picture and experience in ur next post. Look fwd to it.
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Thank you so much for your lovely comment! I’m definitely going to go.
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I hope you find the energy to go today. I find when I nudge myself a bit and do some outside activity that I almost always feel better. I’m not always successful at nudging myself, but I try.
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Thanks Bradley. I’m definitely going to go, but I’m pretty sure I’ll be having a valium in place of the wine. 🙂
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Go Leslie and have a great time! So good hearing from you!!!
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Thank you so much Ava!
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Good luck. I have only just come across your blog and I can completely relate to what you are saying. I’m following your blog so I can read more.
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Thank you so much Katie! My posts will be more interesting after today!
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I hope you have fun at the wine and painting class. The wife has wanted to do something like that but she never really takes the opportunity to do it and I don’t like reminding people of things that they say they want to do because I feel that it should be their responsibility, if that makes sense, especially for someone who talks a lot about taking responsibility for your actions and taking ownership of things.
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It makes complete sense. But, don’t forget, sometimes we all need a nudge. 🙂
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I’ve gotten psychotically bent in the past when hubby/bf’s schedule had them up at 4 am and it affected me. I don’t do mornings well, I don’t do deviation, it just rattles my entire equilibrium in an anxiety inducing way.
Of course, the donor thought the problem started with him thus was personal and so he took it, turning me into some sort of controlling bitch monster rather than what I am…Someone deeply upset by changes thus high strung to the nth.
Plus, with Spook, I couldn’t go back to sleep so if his bullshit woke me or rattled me so much I couldn’t sleep…It was miserable. Not personal.
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The schedule deviance has had me on such an edge the last two days. I need my world to work a certain way.
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So nice to see a post from you and can’t wait to hear more xx
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Thanks Jill!
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Welcome 🙂
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Sounds alot like my situation. Mixed manic but no drive. 5 tats in 2.5 months, , disoriented add FUCK but can’t stay still. Dr B (love him added vraylar (aap) known to help control mixed episodes, 4 weeks of samples cause of insurance piss offs. Theyre trying to g get approval. It sucks like FUCK! Hope you feel better SOON!
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Thanks! you too! And I saw your tats! They’re fantastic!
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Thanks. I love em!
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The latest one is the heart/peace sign in black & blue one. Got it Saturday.
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yeah I really like that one alot!
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